Do you ever get mad about what you can't control?Sometimes I get so PISSED about the state of economic and political corruption in the world.
Quite often, actually. (Daily, to be honest.)
Wednesday morning I was getting some eggs at a hotel before boarding my flight from Denver to Rochester. The only news I heard on the TV (which I never watch) was that we - America - will be bailing out EUROPE.
Now, I could go off about the ****ing scam of the Federal Reserve and IRS and what a lying piece of $h!t I think Obama is... but I already did that. In fact, I posted on my wall about it.
It's funny, too, because I knew - as I was posting it - that I was full of shit... and I even reflected on it as I passed in and out of sleep on the 5-hour leg to Philly. But when I saw I had no responses, I got even more pissed, and posted the comment there.
I'm so justified!
Doing shadow work for 18 years (and plenty of psychedelics) has shown me there's nothing in this world that pisses me off more than my own judgments projected outward onto others.
My ego feels so outraged, so morally superior... but in my heart, I know I harbor the same greed as the Rothschilds and Rockefellers. I want it all. I want to play god. I want no consequences. Just power and control. Not all the time. Mostly sub-consciously.
In fact, it takes a lot to even pin it down in myself... so much easier to project it outwards and deny it lives in me (even in the smallest, homeopathic dose). But it's in there. And it's enough to irritate me to the point where I'm seeing it projected outside myself on a global scale.
In fact, it takes a lot to even pin it down in myself... so much easier to project it outwards and deny it lives in me (even in the smallest, homeopathic dose). But it's in there. And it's enough to irritate me to the point where I'm seeing it projected outside myself on a global scale.
This second post got a heap of 'likes' - which tells me I have great friends. Thanks, guys ;-]
So, okay, let's get out the mirror, Craiger...
I'll take a bullet for
the truth. Where do I need to grow a pair? (That's how shadow work
absolves - just turn a mirror on yourself and own the projection. And the gold this work excavates is well worth it!)
My conscience might preclude me from acting it out (most of the time), but I've definitely abused power over others (kids, women, the intellectually challenged) and split hairs over technical 'truths' with people (employers, customers I've sold shoddy products to). It sickens me, and I've worked hard to clean that up and live a more congruent life.
Truth is, when I own my shadow projections onto the ruling elite, and stop feeling like a victim... I kinda like the way these global theatrics are playing out.
The 'New World Order' plodding away at world domination like any proficient chess opponent absolutely fascinates me to no end.
At the level of my soul, I can feel the urges of greed and corruption swishing around with the victim posturing of the 99%... and all of it combines into a witnessing of the totality of my soul that is pure illumination.
Ah-aha! There's the gift!
I'm realizing it takes embracing the paradox of that magnitude of absurdity to wake me up...
I see it all, and I'm pleased.
It's so exquisitely simple in its complexity.
The whole game is staged for a glorious climax of epic proportions.
Every glimmer of insight is dashed by an egoic outrage. Every rush of terror is met with an equal and opposite experience of personal power. The lilting melody of an indomitable human spirit rises up through the petulant wreckage of economic carpet bombing and echoes through the 7 billion souls all converging in the diamond of my heart.
I am all of it. I love all of it.
If there's one thing I'm certain of... the world ends in laughter.
The only conspiracy is one in which 7 billion people work together to help me wake up and remember who I really am.The dreamer.
The one who weaves the story of light and shadow so tightly, I get lost in it. And end up believing my own projections are more real than the Reality that:
Nothing real can be threatened.
Nothing unreal exists.
Herein lies the peace of God.
So, I started this blog... because writing is the one place I can consistently let the small, quiet voice/s of truth in me shine through.
Hopefully it inspires and encourages growth.
Sincerely,
Craig
ps - Thanks for reading and commenting. I welcome your interest in exploring these ideas, and the journey that inspires them. Facebook is a good place to find me if you want to see more of the journey unfold in multimedia. (I rarely accept friend requests from people, especially those I don't know - but you can subscribe, and comment on my open profile.)
pps - You can also dig me at Purpose Mapping and Enlightened Child
Well Done CF. I will be watching and reading - and with your permission I will repost writing to the ManKind Project Journal.
ReplyDeleteHm, my comment did not make it. Try again. Thank you for writing this my love. Your deep ownership of responsibility inspires me immensely. I am so glad you are showing the world who you are fully. I am proud to be in relationship with you.
ReplyDeleteinspiring. raw. beautiful. needed.
ReplyDeleteInteresting, my process is definitely different than yours, but I can relate and it helps me see mine more clearly. I would call it the suffering artist's syndrome, for myself, for my own shadow. It's nice when the greater SELF peaks out from behind the veil; even briefly. Now, what was I railing on?
ReplyDeleteThanks, Craig. I've also been feeling into all of this a lot and seeking "what is the REAL truth?" in all of it. Too much conspiracy and focus on the pain just feeds more fear into the collective. We need to know what's happening, the trends, the realities ~ but not to focus on but use as a catalyst for change ~ first within, then without. This is beautifully expressed. We (all of us) are the light of the world that can shift everything by staying in our hearts, doing the work required to access and spread internal peace so that these projections never have to manifest ~ or at least not to the extreme we "fear". New energy is needed. We can do this. We're doing it. ;)
ReplyDeleteNice once Craig. Your honesty is enlightening and a joy to share.
ReplyDeleteHi Craig. Kudos! I am glad you mentioned the victim posturing of the 99%. I have been feeling it but was too afraid to say it out loud. So, thank you! I was afraid, God forbid, I'd sound like a Republican. People don't get it. They are out there pepper-spraying each other to gobble up (oh, a spontaneous pun!) Black Friday deals, while the 1% counts the money they willingly hand over for toys, gadgets and big-screen TVs ... while meanwhile they have no savings accounts, no retirement plan, they are upside-down in their mortgages, and more debt than they can ever pay off. What is WRONG with Americans? What is the TRUTH? The truth is we are a financially illiterate society. We are asleep. We are greedy. (That's how we got into this mess in the first place, isn't it?) From a spiritual perspective, I believe we will stay in this economic pattern (or keep circling back) until we get the lesson (much like in our individual lives). And, unfortunately, we seem like a long way off, still.
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